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Teaching SUP boarding to beginners is a passion of mine. Being on the lake, and guiding others through a new experience are added rewards.
It also reminds me that learning new skills is positive vulnerability.
I am usually embarrassed when learning something new. Worried about looking stupid, I sometimes avoid trying new experiences. It might be because I allow hecklers in my life to eat away at my fragile confidence.
It is so easy to tell someone else not to allow their ego to be bruised by hurtful words. Snide remarks, "harmless" teasing, it builds up over a life time. Then the countless replaying of those words continue to reopen concealed wounds.
One goal I continue to work towards, is to get over it! Face the awkwardness of learning something new. Ripping out the over played recording of those mean voices out of my mind and stomping on them will glee.